i just can't wrap my mind around it...

it was foggy and the light was just too bright.
these insecurities made everything wrong seem so right.
struggling to be something that shouldn't exist.
wondering.
should i wear that?
or should i wear this?
it was never your purple light.
it was the darkness that came in from the left.
it was the darkness that came in from the right.
have you ever wanted to master it all?
i did.
this way hurts.
it can kill too.
but it was never your purple light.
somehow IT stayed the same.
why thank you.