love, paper & pens...

so, it just so happens that i never planned this. it was a feeling. a rather strong feeling that came about. & i just thought that maybe i'm not even a good friend. a guy that i call my bestfriend birthday was today & i didn't even call him. i sent him a text & he replied however i didn't. that was a random thought. i could be that sometimes. well, as i said before i never planned it. she didn't either i suppose. somehow we loved each other so damn hard that it has left concrete scars on our hearts. shes now attached to my soul so she goes where ever i go. most call me foolish. they call her that too. nobody understands it but us. i guess thats all that matters however i sometimes want folk to agree. the most important thing is being accepted. right? well maybe not. so i write. i write. my imagination is filled with happiness however my reality is filled with something else. neither happiness or its opposite. it's something that i can't describe. the world has got me down to my knees. i thought at one point i would never bend them again. silly me. lost within a bleu mist. wondering if i'll always be a Miss. counting my blessing because i now believe they do exist. however i'm just writing. i adore this art. you?