& i just can't wrap my mind around it....

what was it that roamed within my thoughts? would you happen to know? i'm different. we just look the same. however your traditional ways don't consume me. in fact, i think you're weird. i think it all makes no good damn sense. why would you rather be what she thought you should be? slavery within your own world. do this. say that. eat this. read this book & don't forget to shower twice a day. & that car doesn't fit you. those naps in your hair are UN-pretty. no man would ever love you. & don't you dare miss church on Sunday. we wouldn't want you to disappoint the Reverend. & dont be cheap doing offering. God don't like ugly. & i couldn't find it in my heart to even partially abide by tradition, so i'm here, beaten & torn. lied to & tricked. cursed. crushed & confused. yet...my naps, she found them to be pretty. i could go on however i'm sure you get my point. somewhere in my sadness i found sunshine. i thought your traditional outlook was off yet i still offered to wash your feet & scratched your fears out your head. i still loved you. so why is it so hard for you to love me? i just can't wrap my mind around it...